ECTOPARASITE

This has been floating around in my brain for approx 25.6 hours, it is also a result of immense boredom.

So, does everything happen for a reason?
Depends on your perspective (Read: prepare for a long-winded musing on cause and effect, karma, and destiny). Cause, effect.

Example: This morning I ate two banana crumb muffins, 6 strawberries, and a coffee for breakfast (action). We could look @ this action in relation to one of it's many 'causes;' I got up *really* early this morning and made a batch of banana crumb muffins. No early rising, no banana muffin batter, no batter, no muffiny breakfast. We can also observe the action in relation to its 'effect.' Because I ate a big 'ol breakfast, no mid-morning yoga asana practice today (makes my tummy feel 'crumby' to eat lots before twisting, bending, and upside-down being *bleh*). Now a 'potential' outcome for the day has been closed. This is one of the myriad 'effects' of muffin breakfast eating (another being a stack of muffiny dishes currently in the sink).
So as you can see, it becomes quite a sticky wicket indeed to parse out what is truly 'cause' and what is 'effect.' Inevitably, for each action you do (and arguably for each thought you have), you are 'being' both the 'cause' and the 'effect' within the realm of an infinite web of other actions (and thoughts), which are themselves simultaneously cause and effect.
So now we get to the matter of 'purpose' or reason. Because the matrix of 'cause' and 'effect' is such an incomprehensible one for our cognitive minds to grasp at any meaningful level (and because cause and effect may just be an illusion anyway, imo. But that's a whole other long-winded post for another time), we cannot cognitively grasp why what happens in our lives happens (or why what doesn't happen, doesn't). Yet for some reason, this is our cognitive mind's favourite game to play. We like looking back @ our past actions and thinking, 'Oh, if only I'd have done X differently, I wouldn't be in Y circumstance now.' We also like projecting into the future and thinking, 'Oh, if I could only X, then I can Y later on. If only I had Y, my life would be great.' These are both desires, which are fantastic motivators for action. But unfortunately, they are based on our mind's faulty assumption that it can divine that intricate web of cause and effect (it can't; too many stings attached, so to speak). So, while we may have 'freedom to choose' for any given behaviour @ any particular moment, once we've ventured out into the larger scope of action (or contemplating causes and effects), we're merely engaging in the mind's speculative 'if only' game. And this is urged on by our desires, which get us 'caught' in karma, or the laws of cause and effect.
But we could act without thought of cause and effect and just 'be.' That's not always easy, as the mind is so caught up in playing the 'if only' game. Seeing our actions as merely actions 'now' might be the ultimate destiny, imo. And while it appears that we're all just floating about (and we are, from one perspective), it could be that our random floating isn't so random after all. Though we think we're just trying to fulfill our own desires, we may actually be pulling together through a vast karmic (or action) network. Whilst stuck in gridlock traffic yesterday, I considered what the interstate system around the city must look like from a distance. Just a banana crumb muffin of an idea to nibble on.

So it seems I have become violently ill. My throat feels like it has bought a new knife and hyperactivly is testing out the sharpness on itself whenever I attempt to speak or swallow. Everyso often I do this 'human' function which apparently is called "sneezing" This is new to me. What is the purpose of a 'sneeze'? Should I be worried for the save keeping of my brains and other vital organs? If I at some point 'sneeze' up a spleen or two then someone will have to put it back, people always give me a horrifying look whenever I ask someone to pop back in the ol' organs. This is really quite horrible, nothing seems to be warm enough and in result cannot function properly. Someone told me to stay in bed untill I get well again. What was this person thinking? If only they knew what I keep in my bed. Have you ever walked to school one morning and saw a dead cat on the side of the road, then went back the next day and it was gone? I took the dead cat, and the only way to preserve them with care is to keep them in the freezer. Unfortunatly I do not have a freezer in my lair so my bed is the next best thing.

If anyone is to blame, it's the almost dead lady who is in my art bachelor course. She always looks like she is just waiting to infect other organisms health. For this she will pay, in blood.

This is my reptile friend, Corona.

So the Nine Inch Nails concert was awesome and could NOT have been better! I have great difficulty dealing with excitement and anxiety, so sure enough half way through Wish I had to run to the toilets to throw up what I had recently eaten. After that I was fine and enjoyed the rest of the concert stomach solid free. Oh, and Trent Reznor rang me from a friends phone the other night! Someday I hope to be as lucky as scoring free tickets and backstage passes. Goddamnit.

One more complete day of nothing before I begin my Art course. My god, anything is better then 3 months of demented talk shows and false infomercials, any longer then there would have been brain bits stained onto the television screen. So, as you may have guessed, my boredom got the better of me..

This is a foetus is a jar. Because, well, I can.


(click to go to full image on dA)






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So the Nine Inch Nails concert is in exactly one week. I'm pretty excited, i'm wearing my fourth pair of pants today.

I have a present for the human race, three presents to be exact. Some may scrunch their faces in discust, or want to lick the very backlit screen they're sitting infront of. There's more where these came from but I decided to choose my favourite three, or the best three that represent my horrifying style of drawing.







Farthee-well humanoid beasts!
-J

For once in my life I am enjoying school. Considering I no longer go to school, I love how I have a house to myself, there's no faghole trouble makers running around town and it's a nice feeling (an awesome feeling) knowing while my brain is calmly not operating in bed there is an entire population of school humans whose brains are stressing out. No exams. No hard ass teachers breathing down your neck judging your acidemic skills by nothing more then your appearance. No one box limitations of how much I can consume at one 'lunch interval'.


In 9 days I will be infront of one of the most talented bands in existance, Nine Inch Nails. Stephen will be risking the well-being of his ear drums and sanity for me, and I thaaaank!


Recently I have impressed myself. No less then a month ago I had a change of lifestyle for the worse. No one was there for me (not even stubborn stuck up 'friends' who you have been there for whenever, WHEREEVER) and I got through it alone. I didn't think I could do it, I put my life in the hands of myself and made it through the otherside with no help from anyone else. It made me realise, if I could get through that on my own, I could achieve almost anything, anythingggg. So I had a change of lifestyle. No more getting attached to anyone who you haven't known for over 2 years. I focussed my life on my career instead of pointless relationships. Lets just say, I'm too fuck'd up to care anymore. What I have right now is all I need. I've already sold 2 paintings and a few tattoo designs so it must be working. If a nice girl comes along then yay, just don't expect me to try to hard for something that will enevitably end. Oh, and I have lost all faith in humans. The planets screwed and im just trying to make my way through till I die, whether that's tomorrow or in 40 years. I will continue to do what I have always enjoyed doing and which cannot leave me to rot, art.


Now for my main purpose in life.

Lately, I have been busy. Busy working and busy putting off busy things. BUT THE MACHINE'S BUSINESS HAS COME TO A HALT, temporarily. My empty vessel of a head is doing the main purpose it was built for, filling with caffeine, controlling my hand in motions which result is violent breakages of objects, and art.

It is a new year, what kind of an ambitious construction would I be if I didn't celebrate this with a post? An ignorant one.




Have a good 2009, you internet parasites.

..I drew this thinking of you.
Happy Christmas Humans!

So I recently traveled to the land of Australia. The temperatures were rediculously hot and the clouds were non-existant. Definetly a change of landscape and night life from the shiny gravel of New Zealand. I'll only post a selected few of the bucketload of photos I took.




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So my Bearded Dragon arrived yesterday. She could not have arrived in a worst condition (excluding the fact she didn't die), some postal services need discipline, boy. She seems happy and her name is Corona.


Pssst. I'll post some arts later in the week ;)

An idea for a t-shirt print smacked me in the face the other night, it was quite the struggle to find a working pen or a pencil that has a substancial amount of lead packed in the tip for it to be written on paper before I'd forgotten what the idea was, unfortunatly, I did forget it.

And then got a new idea:


Too bad I liked the other better -tear-

Just thought I'd quickly post a comic I drew recently, LAUGH MY SLAVES!


(click for bigger view)

I've been thinking about printing some of my drawings on t-shirts, maybe save up a bit of money and order a few in bulk and sell to some small shops around town. It'd be pretty awesome if I got a bit of extra money from drawing. I attepmted t-shirt designs at the beginning of the year but it never got anywhere, mostly due to pure lazyness. I don't know, just a thought really.

Been meaning to do this for a while, and trust me, it's taken alot of effort and dedication. I like my sleep and 'do nothing' times :D
Simply, click the image for larger view.









Wheeee, byes!
J

I sat down and decided I should use my procrastination time wisely by writing another post to the blog, 3 energy drinks and 5 Nine Inch Nail albums later I had finished typing this sentence and thought it would just be best if I posted when I have decent substancial to say.

So instead of words of information formed together to make sentences, here's some cupcakes.

If youre reading this, I thankyou, for making the efforts in manouvering the technically enhanced curser over a link thus click on it inwhich brought you to this very website, and also for contributing towards what is indeed, the audience/rest of the planet.

I shall leave you will this image of me with the professionalism of my talents.
eg:// Plan-pony and myself!


(click on it, I dare yah)
-Jordan. D